Embracing Contractions
Chaos – you reject it, run away from it, hate it.
What if I told you that chaos is actually something that is waiting to be born? That chaos is defined as the infinity of space or formless matter before the existence of an ordered universe? Will you turn away from the creation of such magnificence?
This place of chaos, the mess of tangles, this darkness, this space of uncertainty and unknown is where I let go and surrender it all. Everything that I think I am. Surrendering my being. Surrendering my Essence. Becoming formless. Breathing. Being. Doing nothing. Under the Dark Moon, is where I embrace chaos, where I allow myself to rest, allow my body to rest, sink in.
Why do you see your challenges, your lows, your growth periods as something that shouldn’t be present in your life? You want to get out of these phases because you think that it’s not a good place to be. Yet I think it’s part of our human experience. Your soul wanted you to go through these times. Yet you retreat and isolate. You find it hard to share, to strip yourself bare, to reach out to a loved one, to connect even when you are dripping with pain because you have learnt that this is not how you should be presenting yourself. You believe that your broken parts need to stay in the closet, hidden. You have learnt that when you show up with your pain, you become vulnerable and hence seen as weak. You are afraid of being seen as less than when you are not your whole happy shiny self. You are afraid of being SEEN.
What if you just stopped pushing against your spiralling? What if you embraced your contractions even though they may not be the best places to be? You compare your own lows with your h-eyes, and surely rejection and displeasure comes quickly.
What if you breathe love into your contractions? What if you choose to see that even in your contractions, the darkness, the stress, the unknown, the uncertainties… These are also beautiful places for you to be, as you discover yet another layer of yourself. This is your journey within. This is the space that holds great truth for you.
When you breathe love into your contractions, you create space within to hold yourself, when you need it the most. You become more trustworthyto and for yourself, within yourself. You become your very own safe and sacred container. You meet yourself with gentleness and kindness. When you allow yourself to receive your own love without judgments for where and how you are, you are able to connect with a loved one who has earned the right to hear your story with empathy, not sympathy. In that space of connection you’ll find the love of healing, allowing and belonging.
Somehow, even in the darkness, a light illuminates and then you will realise that that is your own light, shining, waiting to be born again.
What if we saw expansions and contractions as cycles of life, death and rebirth? Imagine meeting death with lesser and lesser fear each time? Meeting uncertainties and the unknown with lesser fear and more courage, trust and faith in the unfolding. This allows you to step into a bigger bolder version of you in your life. It’s like the caterpillar that goes into its cocoon before it transforms into a butterfly. Just as the light of the sun and the light of the moon is always upon us even when they are covered by clouds, such is the truth about the Light that is You.
When you allow where you are, there is lesser resistance, lesser self judgments and criticisms. In that space that you create within you is how you can bring in more love into your being. When you create more space, you become more quiet within and you begin to hear your own truth being uncovered. That is how you can be safe within yourself and then learn to trust that you can be safe in the universe as your life unfolds.
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Today I connected with a friend and when I asked her “how are you”, she said “I’m not very good…” and that felt like a true genuine connection to me. A space of trust, of safety, of allowing. As Brene Brown says…
“I define connection as the energy that exists between people when they feel seen, heard, and valued; when they can give and receive without judgment; and when they derive sustenance and strength from the relationship.â€
